I had lunch yesterday with a fellow teacher from the Philippines, and we were both talking about our frustrations with Indonesia and Indonesian culture. No country, no culture, no people are perfect... but living in Indonesia is living in a constant state of frustration. All levels of society seem to do things inherently backwards or at least frustratingly slow. I feel like I have just hit a wall with my work, I don't know how I can carry on with all the inconsistencies and incompetence. This is a beautiful country filled with amazing people but it is in equal parts horrible and corrupt. People seem happy with their inefficient ways of doing things and yet wonder why Singapore is doing so much better than them in comparison... When I leave here this summer I will have spent three years of my life in this country and I honestly don't know if I can take any more. The more I try to change things and make things better I end up become more frustrated and burnt out. They don't want to change, they don't want to make things right, they don't even want to do things legally. Its too much for me I can't take it any more.
Most people who change the world dont see the change, but are praised after their death. Dont give up! You are amazing and doing amazing things. On the other side of the spectrum, I would be ok with you coming home!!!! It HAS been 3 years ya know!
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